For a very long time, i have thought about the reasons it bothered me when i heard people say they are attracted to men in tailored suits. Personally, i cringe when i hear/see it, yet i feel a longing and a sense of disappointment when i cannot meet this item on people’s checklist. i have never owned a tailored suit. i have owned one suit in my life and hate dressing up because of the lackluster final result.
it makes me think about how we construct attraction around class status, while “dressing down” seems to be a way at humility, rather than a mockery of the financial limitations with which i live every day.
what is attractive about a tailored suit? Does it have anything to do with the conditioning that comes along with the impacts of what that suit may mean or bring? the socialization surrounding men being providers, and what are the implications of perpetuating this..
It also begs the critique of how race plays into the implications of wearing a suit, so i also need to process how this plays into this conversation.
This is just coming from the cat that can’t afford your tailored suits..
the moon has my attention..
books i just ordered:
The Black Panther: Intercommunal News Service 1967-1980 | David Hilliard
We Want Freedom: A Life in the Black Panther Party | Mumia Abu-Jamal
Seize the Time: The Story of the Black Panther Party and Huey P. Newton | Bobby Seale
this past week, i have been thinking about the barriers our society views between friendship and sexuality/intimacy. as if these concepts are mutually exclusive. this plays out in many different ways:
it makes me think about the possible consequences this is having on intimate/sexual relationships. If friendships are to be void of sexuality and sensual intimacy, does this have consequences the other way around? are sexual and intimate relationships inherently void of friendship in how they play out?
Are there barriers within sexual/intimate relationships that prevent these people from cultivating true friendship because we have been socialized and conditioned to believe that our examples and definitions of friendship do not include sexuality/intimacy?
If so, what are the differences between friendship within an intimate/sexual relationship and friendship that is void of this sexuality/intimacy?
for having been broken
just finished reading:
The Communist Manifesto | Karl Marx and Friedrich Engels
i am ashamed to admit
my energy remembers you,
your scent, touch;
still becomes intoxicated
at the thought of your existence
in my past chapters,
pages referencing your glory
often at the worst possible moments..
Current book list:
The War Before: The True Life Story of Becoming a Black Panther, Keeping the Faith in Prison, and Fighting for Those Left Behind | Safiya Bukhari
Black Power: Politics of Liberation in America | Kwame Ture & Charles V. Hamilton
Afeni Shakur: Evolution Of A Revolutionary | Jasmine Guy
The Black Panthers Speak | Philip S. Foner
Panther Baby | Jamal Joseph
Revolutionary Suicide | Huey P. Newton
To Die For The People | Huey P. Newton
Want to Start a Revolution?: Radical Women in the Black Freedom Struggle | Dayo F. Gore, Jeanne Theoharis, Komozi Woodard
The Black Power Movement: Rethinking the Civil Rights-Black Power Era | Peniel E. Joseph
Living for the Revolution: Black Feminist Organizations, 1968–1980 | Kimberly Springer
Living for the City: Migration, Education, and the Rise of the Black Panther Party In Oakland, California | Donna Murch
The Assassination of Fred Hampton: How the FBI and the Chicago Police Murdered a Black Panther | Jeffrey Haas
Liberation, Imagination, and the Black Panther Party: A New Look at the Panthers and Their Legacy | Kathleen Cleaver & George Katsiaficas
The Black Panther Party [Reconsidered] | Charles E. Jones
The Black Panther Party: Service to the People Programs | The Dr. Huey P. Newton Foundation
Soledad Brother: The Prison Letters of George Jackson | George Jackson
Black against Empire: The History and Politics of the Black Panther Party | Joshua Bloom & Waldo E. Martin
A Taste of Power: A Black Woman’s Story | Elaine Brown
Not pictured above:
Liberated Territory: Untold Local Perspectives on the Black Panther Party | Yohuru Williams
In Search of the Black Panther Party: New Perspectives on a Revolutionary Movement | Jama Lazerow
This Side of Glory: The Autobiography of David Hilliard and the Story of the Black Panther Party | David Hilliard
Huey: Spirit of the Panther | David Hilliard
i told my brother,
“i love you, Ben.”
this may seem a bit trivial,
but it is something
i cannot remember
ever doing before..
updated reading list for the two semester independent study I am doing on the Black Panther Party.
also, I created a tumblr to document my readings and upload relevant quotes so if you would like to accompany me, feel free to follow.
writes into your flesh
you make of me.
I catch midnight
as moon fires
in my throat.